Life in Örebro

Life is unraveling, I'm facing fears and stretching out my wings. I am meeting a lot of people now that I have settles down here - I know for the first time in a while that I will be here for a while. At first I was afraid of being here, old memories from my school time in Glanshammar, but I'm getting over that very quickly.

And now planting new seeds! Meeting exciting inspiring people, projects, and coming up with m own ideas. for example a Thriller  (Michael Jackson) project invented by the 'female Stewrats' (me and mamma)! Next Halloween, Örebro - big zombie dance performance in the city, we are talking to funders already*. Then I am meeting with future councelers helping me with study ad jobs. As well as filming projects for youth and a bunch of fun stuff.

Next I'm gonna see if I can find a nice place to live, my own room would be nice (living in my brothers room since I got here in September).

I'm very grateful for how much energy my mother has been putting into integrating me into the Swedish society. She takes me to of seminars and groups in the city with her networks. It's really good for me to stretch out an meet people. (Tak mamma!)

So life is in general wonderful in a dilightful and challenging way (as it should!).

*You interested to join -  dance, fund, film etc? Check out thrillerorebro.ning.com. 

PS Image references:

http://www.windinfeathers.com/images/swan.jpg

http://fineartamerica.com

http://blog.smartdraw.com/images/

Horse Training with Lucky

I had just returned back to denmark, horses being the reason I travelled half way across the world from india, Jasmin started looking out for ways that I could learn.

A quick cycle ride away, A Stable that takes in horses for a second chance - 'Lucky' was one of them. Lucky was found thin and abandoned by his owner in a paddock. Now he lives a nourishing life, and to my good fortune he could use some attention.

The day I introduced myself to him I felt exited and nervous - coming as a apprentice of a known trainer, but feeling foreign to my surroundings and the tasks that lie ahead; training a horse with horsemanship techniques.

My goal has been for the time i have been training him to learn as much as I can - about the topic the fascinates me so utterly. I had never expected I would come as far as I have with Lucky. I have managed things that I once thought took years of work and patience to accomplish. For instance - a horse that impulsively and respectfully runs by your side and follows your every step.

It's possible, and it took mea month... seeing him only a few times a week. It is possible, and it's not even the beginning.

I am astonished and exited. Amazed by how simple and fun it can be (quite differently from experiences I had with my own horse back in the day).

Horses are like children in many ways... they can find and push our buttons and show us our strengths and our weaknesses. Horses are a great key to learning about our true leadership - the horses' naturallt depend on leaders. Any horse has the will to show anyone that is inspired how they can grow stronger in being a leader, if they have the heart and a few tools to listen.

In Denmark and spreading my roots - my future?

I've been back in Rosenlund since and being here this time around is quite different. Now that all the summer workshops are over the place is quitly empty - Karsten, Jasmin and Juliane are the only people on the campus.

I've also begun playin with horses in the vicinity together with Anne-Sofie who also has learned a lot from Jasmin. So we go a few times a week to go play with a icelandic horse, Ofey, who was here during the summer. Anne-Sofie is and I exitedly spend time together, sharing horsemanship knowledge, and helping each other see what we can't see when we are with the horse. Lately I have been learning a lot about being a teacher because Anne-Sofie is the one who has care for Ofey, so I have been helping their relationship in any ways that I see when they are playing together. This has been a great experience for me - to see how much I know and share it.

Along with horses - I have just got a 'project' of my own started. There is a stable nearby with a 9 year old warmblood that very much needed a caretacker. So now I have access to play with him and learn from that as well. I was up there in the week and got to know him and was suprised to feel how much I'd learned in the last few months and along with that felt terribly exited. I was thinking "I can actually teach a horse now! I can communicate through positive reinforcement what I want, and be understood". And this is a step in my whole relation with horses. It is tool. And it is one that can be very usefull.

So all in all. Things are exiting. AND..

I recently had a big block of my life squared of - I had decided that in October I was going to be in London with my mother. But the other morning 'my stars changed' and Now that is not what is happening. So I don't have any plans in the tije to come, and it feels great! And Scary! So...

Well - I'm free. What do I want to do? ( - be here and now) ... Interesting.